This weekend was awful. Bleeding chips in tournaments and cash games. I am rethinking whether or not I want to continue playing. My main reason is this: I am beginning to think that I either cannot win, or it is a zero sum game for me. I win big, only to lose it back, with the only clear winner the casino. Honestly, I have not won or lost more this year than I see some players lose in the "big game" in one session. Therefore, it is not profitable for the time I spend.
Also, some of the "personalities" are beginning to wear on me (and I am very sure that others can say the same about me). I have a saying that I try to always keep in mind, "everyone brings me joy....some when they arrive....and some when they leave". I can honestly say that most of the time I enjoy the banter, but other times it really wears thin on me. I would probably play better if I just kept my mouth shut and played like my poker hero, Pony-tail Bob.
There is also the loss I am suffering in other areas: my relationships and lack of developing other interests, excercise, better sleep, etc. All in all, I need to cut way back and "get a life". I am not quite ready to say goodbye, but am very close.
3 comments:
You are right and we're waiting for you when you make that decision.-ash
your blog is very fine......
Oh, Dr. Phil. Don't you do it! You are a good player and you are just suffering a little right now like I am. I can completely relate. I'm taking a very short break. I might even take a longer break later, but don't give up on the game. You love it. You know you do!
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